(I’m leaving out A LOT of details, as I write my story I will go back and add more. I also discourage drug use)
To understand this story you need the back story. So for this post we go back for you to understand what and why certain things happened.
Freshman year in high school, i’m the quiet, always on time, following the rules kid. I’m full of ideas and usually acting far more mature for my age. Just spent the summer studying the complex coding of Linux , so yea i’m a geek. This routine goes on for some time. During the end of the year a friendship/relationship ended. So suddenly i’m around friends who looked to me before making any decision and I stopped being the smart one . So yes I started using drugs to feel better. I now have a history of doing that.
“Drugs are a waste of time. They destroy your memory and your self-respect and everything that goes along with your self esteem.”- Kurt Cobain
Sophomore year I was on all kinds of drugs. I’m not afraid to admit that at all. During this time me and my closest friend looked at other people our age and how stupid they were acting and made some strong promises that we didn’t have to experience that kind of stupidity to still have fun. We were ‘smart’ about our drug use which lead to it never becoming a big problem for us but in hindsight it was a big problem still. There were still close calls though but I was never a regular smoker of this stuff it was at most a once a week thing.
Anyone that knew me well prior to this time was concerned for me because its a path they could never of imagined me heading down.
Midway through the year we watched other people lie to there friends/girlfriends about there drug use and upon seeing a party, I had snapped and started to change. I was alone in my change to avoid drugs. I started to distance myself from even my closest friends because of it. I became even more depressed. During this time away from those friends I started broadening my friend circle, people who I was never close with I started spending more time with, people much smarter then me.
During this time even with depression I started setting some lofty goals, the drugs had given me a new calmer attitude, even off them that relaxed attitude remained. Now i’m not saying you need drugs to do that I was probably going to find my way without them. During this time those friends who I was avoiding realized I was more important then the drugs, they just needed to figure that out on there own. People who I “thought” were friends remained distant. I now had a much smaller circle of friends now, but friends who would go to hell and back for me.
Junior year, my drug of choice was nicotine and on occasion vodka but that was both a rarity. I had goals and as much as I didn’t want to believe it I wanted to become one of my teachers A/V students as my best friend a year older then me held the job and he was looking for a replacement for the following year. I spent the year trying to prove myself with my knowledge and it didn’t take much. At the end of the year the job was going to be mine.
“As you begin changing your thinking, start immediately to change your behavior. Begin to act the part of the person you would like to become. Take action on your behavior. Too many people want to feel, then take action. This never works.”
Senior year, My A/V job paired me with Marcus someone I never met prior. Knowing what I know now, that first day of the school year marked a change that would continue for years to come. (See the Aaron & Marcus Productions story). This started my work at the HS which continues to this day. During my senior year I had started a web and graphic design company (GFX Web Solutions) which never got off the ground but I consider it a successful failure. It built the foundation that AMP would be founded on just two years later. Over the course of my senior year my new and improved relaxed attitude gave me more insight to see potential ideas and people who I needed stay in contact with no matter what.